Saturday, April 25, 2009
mimosa...
I felt at times I do offend people.. unintentionally..
I sincerely wanna apologize for it...
I have this very bad weak point of..being unable to bring the reaction of my mind.. into my face and my expression..in a quick time...
sort of unable to said things out at the rite time..
or unable to react correctly to happenings around me...
It always happening specially when i don't feel confident with my reaction..
because i don want to offend people around me...
I always have that mind that i want my friends to be happy.. with me..
which is why at times i keep myself very quite..
at times , it became another message...
I am like a 'mimosa' plant... and when i feel not confident in my reaction..
my eyes will sometimes send a 'special unwanted misunderstanding eye power' to people around me...
as a way to protect myself
my heart is not 'bad' ... i am sure...
I love my mum very very much.. my dear very very much.. how can i have a bad heart?
I will always try my best to care for people around mi... or at the very least..
I never have bad intention to hurt or harm anyone...
of cos I will protect myself.. from being hunt by others... everyone does that...
hope i could walk out of my weakness someday....
I have made great friends because of it.. and lost some...
just have to be brave and still be myself..
because if I give up myself... no one will gimme a chance to stand up anymore...